Perhaps.....

   The mind is a funny thing, especially in the way it makes associations. This morning the Scripture reading was from Mark 11, and it concerned a couple of things that Jesus did. The first was the cursing of the fig tree and the second was the running the money changers out of the temple.

   As I looked at these two, I began to think of the motivation of Jesus for these two acts. Since He did not sin, I will have to rule that out, but the "whys" of these can be difficult to take in, especially the fig tree episode.

   But, I really found myself not so much worrying about why Jesus did things, but why do I do the things that I do. Habit, duty, or a combination? Have tos or want tos? Necessity or choice? For self or others? What is my motivation for my actions?

   So, I resolve to make today an experiment in motivation and living. I will attempt to look behind what I do and see why, and, at the end of the day, or in the morning, to chronicle my attempt at self-examination. I will attempt to be honest and not make myself look better or worse than actual living will show. Perhaps I will learn something. Perhaps I will see myself in the way that God does. Perhaps I can draw closer to His Will for my life as I check the "whys" of my "whats". Perhaps it will not be an exercise in futility, but actually lead somewhere.

Perhaps.....